For the first time for as long as I can remember, I have come to a complete standstill. For no reason that I can explain I cannot summon up any sort of enthusiasm at the moment for a hobby that has meant so much to me for so many years.
The picture above shows my modelling table photographed a few days ago, pretty much as I left it way back in August. The ancient Airfix Hawker Demon that I invested so much time in sits there in bits. It’s become a bit of a barrier, stopping me from making any clear decision about what I should do next. Not that the model wasn’t going well. There have been a few dodgy moments here and there, but considering that I have had to fashion a new kit out of a sixty year old one I’m pretty pleased with the results so far. Even the hand painted markings that I was dreading have turned out better than expected.
My malaise is not really the kits fault, though there’s no doubting the longer it has been left, the harder is has been to go back to it. So today I decided to clear the bench, packing the Demon into a box, out of sight and out of mind, for the time being at least. I had hopes that it would be ready in time for the Nationals in November and there’s still time, but I know what I’m like and it may be quite a while before it appears again. At least the bench is clear now and it’s a fresh start, if I want it to be.
I’ve been blessed with a pretty good summer holiday and I can usually get quite a bit of modelling done, but this apathy has crept up on me slowly, and I haven’t even had the enthusiasm to add to this blog. I haven’t yet turned my back on my local modelling club, and I do appreciate the friendship that the local meet offers, but I haven’t been to a meeting for some time now. Family and now work commitments have had to take priority, and I’m slowly shaking off a little bit of guilt. A bit of a break from all of this will surely do me good in the long run?
Just to check I visited my stash of kits in the loft today and peered into a few boxes, looking for something to get me enthused but it still must be too soon. So I’ve decided that I’m not going to worry about it and let my interests develop naturally and in good time. No deadlines for articles or competitions. I might even try a few other projects that I’ve been promising myself for some time now.
I don’t think I’ll be changing the name of my site just yet, but with the advancing years it’s time to start a few new challenges.